Waiting Until Dawn by Ronni Walker-Glasper

Waiting is such a powerful word.

Behind waiting is FAITH. TRUST. HOPE. LOVE. All the words that give waiting POWER.

So many times I have tried to wait for HIM to move, but I decided to go for it on my own.

I fail every time because I am nothing outside of HIM.

In HIM, I am everything: Favored. Fearless. Faithful.

 

Waiting is always in opposition with impatience.

Impatience squeezes his hands around your throat until you can’t breathe.

In an attempt to break free, you lose yourself and focus on the goal of freedom.

Freedom disguises herself as shiny new things you can collect. You rename her Fortune.

Fortune becomes your friend. And eventually, she becomes your foe.

Every time I stand at the top of the mountain with pride in my pocket, I fall down to reality.

During the fall I realize I am nothing outside of HIM.

In HIM, I am everything: Brave. Bold. Beautiful.

 

He is there to catch me when I fall. He picks me up and mends my marks. I am whole again.

He asks me to wait for HIM to move, but I partner with impatience and move before HIM.

I fall again.

He picks me up.

I fall again.

He picks me up.

I fall.  Again!

He picks me up.

 

After my fall, I cry out to HIM throughout the night.

He holds me in his arms until the morning light.

My lament becomes my laughter.

My sorrow becomes my song.

My doom becomes my dawn.

 

I can’t keep the secret any longer.

I will shout to the world that I have accomplished nothing on my own.

But by HIS grace, I am here.

I am here.

I am here.

I am! Here.

 

I am ready to patiently wait upon HIS directives.

I will joyfully move in HIS timing.

Regardless of how long night lasts, I will wait.

I will wait.

I will wait.

I will. Wait!

 

I am waiting until dawn.